Grace is Always There - 1

Sri Ramana Maharshi

D: Doubts are always arising. Hence my question.

M: A doubt arises and is cleared; another arises and that is cleared, making way for another, and so it goes on. So there is no possibility of clearing away all doubts. See to whom the doubts arise. Go to their source and abide in it. Then they cease to arise. That is how doubts are to be cleared.

D: Grace alone can help me to it.

M: Grace is not exterior. In fact your very desire for grace is due to grace that is already within you.

From 'Talks with Sri Ramana Maharshi'

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Natesa Mudaliar opened his mouth and asked Maharshi: "I wish to learn and experience what your anugraham is, as people differ in their accounts of it." Maharshi replied: "I am always giving my anugraham. If you cannot apprehend it, what am I to do?" Natesa Mudaliar understood thereby that his silent samadhi was itself anugraham which all aspirants should aspire for, contact, and get into.

Sometime later Mudaliar came again to Maharshi. Some highly gifted persons were comparing notes with the Maharshi about their advanced experiences in matters spiritual, i.e., in the highest reaches of the soul's flight. Sitting very near and drinking in ever word through his ears, Mudaliar was aghast. The words that were heard were easy, well-known Tamil or Sanskrit words. But thei sense was far above him. The talk was all far, far above him. A great sorrow overwhelmed his soul. "Shall I or shall I never have these experiences, now or in any future births?" Thus he thought within himself. His dejection must have caught the master's keen eye; as after the visitors left, Maharshi said to him: "Why are you dejected? What you seek is that which is always ready (siddha) at hand. Can anyone feel anxious, whether he will get what exists always? Do you feel just now that you have not got possession of it, i.e., that it is not in the palm of your hand? If it is not clear today it will be clear to you tomorrow. Why should you be downcast over such a matter? If you were really unfit to have it how could the thought of seeing great ones have occurred to you?" 

Peace entered Mudaliar's soul immediately.

From: 'Self-Realization' (Narasimha Swami)