Nothing Has Ever Happened

Sri Siddharameshwar Maharaj

Since childhood, when some awareness of this life dawned, the fear of death was imposingly menacing. As the vast experience of the universe was before our eyes, there was a constantly increasing hope to achieve and possess something very great, some kind of property. It was felt that I must have an extraordinary possession in the present, and also for the future. For future births also, it was thought correct to have some great possession. So, a very strong desire was harassing me relentlessly. There was a firm conviction that this world is real, and that the next world that I am going to enter is also real. Now, all that has proved to be futile, and I realized that this seemingly real world is only a mirage. Therefore, not a single thing is to be possessed and accumulated by me. The worldly existence seemed to be an ocean but it proved that there was not even a drop of water. Now it is all right. The Illusion is dissolved. The one who was without birth was liberated from birth and death. The man thought that he had become a tiger, but when he was shown a real tiger, his illusion of being a tiger was gone. He, who was not a family man, was being possessed by a ghost of family life. That ailment was removed and he was released. He was always non-dual, but the false duality was broken. He was engrossed in the world of people, and then he was brought to his own "Aloneness". He was awake, and then he was awakened. He was deathless, and was made deathless. The fear that he had harbored in his mind was removed.

He whose very nature is wisdom, and He, who is the Self, was made the Self. The "Nectar of Immortality" (amrut) was given the quality of "deathlessness". One who does not die is the "Deathless Self". One who cannot die is the Immortal Nectar. Even then, he was obsessed with the idea that he is mortal, but that obsession was also destroyed. He was made immortal. Now he will never die. One who is free was given freedom. There is no necessity of having hope that I will free, because there is no trace of bondage. He was already united, but he was given unity. He was feeling that he was thrown out and therefore he was hanging, which made him afraid. In that place where he was banished to, he became convinced that he is not separated or estranged, that he is originally spread out everywhere, all-pervading, essentially One, alone. After many days, he met himself. The division of the undivided was gone. All the spiritual practices bore fruit.

God whose real place is in the "Shrine room", the inner sanctum of the temple, was properly placed there only. Ge was having a dream that he was wandering in a forest, but now he is convinced that he is properly in the Shrine room where he belongs. That which he was running after, although it was always near him, he now has. He was sorrowful because of a very bad dream. Although he was a Brahmin, of the highest caste, he had become a so-called untouchable. That is now gone and he has regained his quality of being a Brahmin, a "Knower of Brahman". He is convinced that nothing has ever happened.