Reality Cannot Be Known

 Sri Siddharameshwar Maharaj

Th demon is the buffalo bull on whom the God of Death, Yama, rides. All those who hold on to their physical body as "I", are the bull buffaloes. Yama rides on them. Yama means punishment. Yama means sorrow, Yama means death, and death means fear. There is definite fear and punishment for those who hold on to bodily egoism. Even the entity which says "I am God, I am Brahman" is the same ego. When Paramatman says, "I am", or "I have experience," or "I have become Reality," this is also all ego. The ego, the sense of "I", undergoes change of outer form. This energy is the desire to enjoy. It is so skillful of this that it tries to deceive even God. It changes its form, its quality, very swiftly and very skillfully, but does not deviate from its desire, its lust, to enjoy. The ego very easily deceives the so-called "great pious sages". It enslaves even the various hosts of gods by inspiring desires in them. It only becomes subservient to those who remain in their "True Being", ever alert against any distraction. This cannot be understood except by minute subtle observation. While the urge or energy of the ego is based on concept and imagination, the Reality has no aim before it. The imagination cannot measure the immensity of Reality. This means that the concept of "I", cannot know the nature of Reality. It cannot know what is its length, breadth, how much it is, wherefrom and where are the states it pervades, etc. The sense of "I" is always incomplete, limited, and turned downward. So long as it is turned downwards, it goes on expanding, but when it turns upwards and ventures to grasp the immeasurable, it is dissolved automatically, and therefore cannot measure the end of the endless. 

The four stages of speech, Para, Pashyanti, Madhyama and Vaikhari, are all destroyed in the Reality. Who should speak there? Who should tell anything there? If it is spoken about, then it is not Reality. To say that "I am Brahman" is not being Brahman. It is, as it is, without talking. It is, but it does not speak, which means it exists before the utterance of any speech. It is prior to any experience that takes shape, which means that it is there before awareness of the experiencing of the body and persists even in the awareness of the body. It started talking and utilizing other sense organs because there was experience of the body, but even then it is the same. When the body will be no more and only some words may remain, and afterwards when even those words come to an end, it is still there, as it was. The body came and it is gone. But there is no addition or subtraction in the Reality. The ego sense, which experiences the limited body, is the only thing that seems to be wrong in the Reality. When this is understood, everything is made right. Reality is there even if I say it is not. It does not change. Even though many things may be said about it, it is as it is. It remains always as it is. The nature of Brahman does not change. The Reality, which is, does not change. It is always only "That", whatever you may say about it. If you use bad words, they are all only names of Lord Shiva.